The last month has been rough but it’s smoothing out. My spouse still occasionally has anger outbursts but she’s slowly adapting to realizing that I am going to do this. And today I began HRT, another milestone on my journey. I don’t feel anything from the hormones (or at least I don’t think I do, yet) but there’s a big psychological relief in starting. One foot is on the road and now I just have to keep putting one foot in front of another.
My spouse also had an anger outburst when we began discussing financial matters. She’s going to have to realize that she’s not going to live in the style she has grown accustomed to over the years. I’m going to support her but I’m not going to impoverish myself on her account. I am going to try to be as fair as I can. I’m not the one who said it’s embarassing to be seen with me. I’m not the one who’s worried about what the neighbors think. She has made her choices and can live with the consequences and I am not going to be guilt tripped into anything.
But the big news today was starting hormones! Yay! Another positive step forward, even if it’s tiny and slow.
Oh, and as a side note, my two sons continue to exclude me from anything family related so I’ve not seen two of my grandchildren in months now. I’ll remember this too.